‘Are you sure you don’t want me to come pick you up?’, Joon’s worried voice was echoing from the other side of the phone.
‘It’s raining like crazy outside and it’ll take me five minutes to get to your place. What’s the point in you coming out?’, you asked and chuckled. ‘Nothing will happen to me Joonie, don’t worry.’
You heard him sigh and for some seconds there was silence.
‘You have an umbrella, right?’, he then asked.
‘Of course.’, you sheepishly lied. If he knew that you forgot your umbrella at home he’d storm out of his apartment and come after you no matter what you’d say.
‘Okay then. Come as quickly as you can, okay? You know how fast I become worried.’
‘Gotcha!’, you replied and then hung up without waiting for him to say anything else.
You got out of the library, standing in the threshold and looking at the rain pouring down.
‘Just my luck.’, you said to yourself. You never thought that it would rain on such a hot summer evening. A pair of denim shorts and a white tank-top was everything that was covering you. You knew that once you would arrive at Joon you would be drenched, but hell, who cared. Thinking about it more deeply, you realized that rain didn’t sound like such a bad idea now. You were tired from all the reading so maybe the drops would refresh you.
Taking a deep breath, you started running along the empty streets towards Joon’s apartment. At first, strands of your hair were slapping you over the face, but after a while, getting completely wet, they just stuck on your skin. You felt the rain pouring down your entire body, revitalizing you. Stepping into a tiny puddle from time to time was making you giggle and reminded you of your childhood. You were right. Rain really wasn’t such a bad idea. The moment you got into Joon’s apartment building you rested your hands on your knees and breathed heavily.
‘That was great.’, you told yourself and waited for your heart to beat normally. The few people that were on the street at that hour and in that weather probably thought that you were crazy, but you couldn’t care less.
You called the elevator and got in, looking in the mirror on the side and being horrified by how you looked.
‘Joonie’s gonna laugh at me.’, you told yourself and got out of the elevator once it got to Joon’s floor.
You knocked on the door and called for him.
‘Jagiya, I arrived!’
The door instantly opened, and there he was, in front of you. He was wearing the very colorful t-shirt that you bought for him last Valentine’s Day.
He scanned you from head to toe, and when his eyebrows formed a frown, you knew that you were about to get scolded.
‘Didn’t you say that you had an umbrella?’, he asked and pulled you in, hurrying to the bathroom and getting you a towel. ‘Did you lie to me??’
‘Maaaaaaaybe~’, you said in an apologetic tone and looked at him. ‘I didn’t want you to get out in that weather Joonie!’
He hissed at you and threw the towel at your face, jumping on the couch.
‘I’m so mad at you I’m not even going to dry you! Do it yourself!’, he scolded and averted his gaze from you.
‘Aishhh!’, you hissed through your teeth. ‘Okay then!’
You took the towel and swooshed it all over your hair, trying to dry it as good as possible. First the roots and then the ends of your hair. When you looked down at Joon, you realized that he was now looking at you. Not only that, he was practically eating you up with his glare. His eyes were big and he was smiling. Then, suddenly, he let a big half-sigh, half-moan out.
‘What’s the matter?’, you asked and stopped moving your hands for a second.
He continued to smile.
‘You’re not wearing a bra.’, he said and you looked down at your chest, seeing how your white tank-top became see-through from the rain and your hard nipples were poking through it.
if you thought that I’d never reach that level of crazy fangirl where I’d give up an entire shelf for my KPOP albums, well, you were wrong щ(ಥДಥщ)
Doesn’t this look beautiful though? IT’S AS IF ALL OF MY FANTASIES AND PASSIONS AND EVERYTHING ARE IN THAT ONE SHELF OH SOMEONE SAVE ME FROM THIS SINFUL PLEASURE ಥ⌣ಥ
To name all of the albums: U-KISS’ “DORADORA”, MBLAQ’s “JUST BLAQ”, U-KISS’ “COLLAGE”, U-KISS’ “NEVERLAND”, MBLAQ’s “100%VER.”, U-KISS’ “STOP GIRL”, U-KISS’ “FORBIDDEN LOVE” (Normal Japan Version), MBLAQ’s “BLAQ%VER.”, MBLAQ’s “BLAQ STYLE”, and last but definitely not least MBLAQ’s “MONALISA”.
(Those CD’s under Forbidden Love are Korean learning CD’s AHEHEHE)
my JUST BLAQ album arrived as well, and HOT DAMN
Vampire-ish G.O is really a big big turn on щ(ಥДಥщ) And the whole album is really really cute and all of them look AMAZING
Just, it’s unfair that DoongDoong got only 2 pics when all the other ones got 3 each ;;A;; I wanted to see more Doong
and oh, have I forgot to mention my MONA LISA album came yesterday as well??????
JUST LOOK AT FREAKING G.O. ONCE YOU LOOK YOU CAN’T LOOK AWAY I SWEAR
But on a more not-so-fangirl-note, I find it really funny that Seungho is dressed up as Papillon because well Papillon used to shove liquior bottles up his ass ahahahaha
‘Does it hurt a lot?’, she asked and looked at me with those beautiful eyes filled with worry.
‘No. It’s way better than the last few days.’, I reassured her and smiled at her.
‘Should I open your window? It’s really hot today.’, she asked, and without waiting for my answer, she stood up from her chair and opened all the windows in my bedroom. When she came back, I could see traces of sweat on her neck and sideburns.
‘Are you hungry? Do you want some water?’, she asked.
‘You’re so beautiful when you’re worried about me.’, I replied and smiled.
‘Yaaaa~’, she raised her voice at me and slapped my arm. ‘What are you saying in these kind of situations?’
‘How can you beat a helpless man? I have the meanest girlfriend in the world!’
‘You should feel lucky for not hitting you in the stomach! This is a serious matter and you’re joking around!’, she scolded and pouted at me.
‘Who said I was joking?! I never joke when I call you beautiful!’, I rectified and frowned at her.
‘Nevermind that.’, she sighed and shook her head. She looked like a caring mother which was looking after her child. ‘I have to change your bandages now.’
‘Again? You changed them hours ago!’
‘I have to change them every 5 hours and apply cream to it.’, she explained and stood up from her chair.
‘Are you sure you don’t just want to see me naked?’, I asked and laughed.
She hissed at me and frowned.
‘Okay okay, I’ll stop! Don’t hit me again!’, I apologized and laughed.
She smiled as well, wiping her sweaty forehead with the back of her palm.
‘Say, jagi, why don’t you take off your blouse since it’s so hot?’, I asked and looked up at her.
‘Should I? It’s really really warm today.’, she asked and opened the first button of her jacket.
>Jackpot!!<, I thought to myself. Since the accident she didn’t even kiss me since she was too worried about me, so seeing her undress herself in front of me was really exciting. I missed seeing her silky skin.
She unbuttoned the whole blouse and took it off, remaining in her bra and denim shorts. I swallowed hardly. It’s been over two weeks since I saw her like this, so it made my hormones go crazy.
‘Much better.’, she stated and smiled, leaned forward, grabbing the ends of my shirt and pulling it over my head. She took a seat next to me on the bed, slowly taking the old bandage off.
‘It doesn’t hurt a lot, right?’, she asked and I could see sadness in her eyes.
‘No, it doesn’t. I promise you, it doesn’t hurt anymore.’, I reassured her once again and she smiled at me. She took the medicinal cream from the cabinet and started applying it on my ribs. Her fingers felt so soft against my skin. She was so gentle I could barely feel her touch.
‘Do I really have to?’, Mir asked in a whiny voice and you could see his hands trembling a little bit.
‘Babe, you have to get over your fear! And I’m here to help you.’, you reassured him and took his hands into yours, tightly squeezing them. As a result, Mir smiled at you.
‘You grew up on a farm yet never rode a horse because you’re too scared of them!’, you then scolded and let go of his hands, gently flicking his chest.
‘It’s not my fault they are so scary! They look at me with those big scary eyes like they’re aching to stomp me with their hooves!’
‘Don’t be silly!’, you exclaimed and went closer to the beautiful horse, caressing its side. ‘Just look how gorgeous she is. Your mother said that her name is Rin, right?’.
‘Yes, Rin.’, Mir answered but he was still keeping his distance.
‘You’re so pretty Rin, aren’t you?’, you started spoiling the horse, caressing its head. ‘You ask me how someone can be afraid of such a wonderful creature like yourself? Well I don’t understand that either Rin.’, you continued and Rin neighed, enjoying your caressing.
‘You really love horses, don’t you?’, Mir asked and took a step closer.
‘I love all kinds of animals, but horses will always hold a special place in my heart. My dad taught me how to ride my first and only horse, Shelby, and that is one of my most precious memories.’, you explained as you took some cubes of sugar from a container and handed them to Rin. ‘After they had to put her down due to her illness, I was devastated, but my father told me that she loved me very much and that she thanks me for all the time we spent together, so slowly, I started treasuring the times I spent with her instead of mourning her.’
Mir then got next to you, slowly stretching his hand out and touching Rin’s head. When he saw that she wouldn’t attack him in any way, he started caressing her, smiling.
‘As long as you love horses this much, they can’t be so bad, right?’, he asked and turned to you, smiling.
You nodded and took Mir’s hand, placing a cube of sugar into it.
‘Feed her, she loves is.’, you encouraged him and he did as told, giggling at the ticklish sensation when Rin’s lips touched his skin.
‘Now that I look better at her, she’s pretty.’, Mir then confessed.
‘Did you hear that Rin? My oppa thinks you’re pretty! Don’t you dare steal him away from me!’, you jokingly threatened and chuckled.
After feeding her a couple more sugar cubes, you decided it would be time to get Mir on her back.
‘Okay, let’s do it Mir!’, you said and took his hand, taking him to Rin’s side.
‘H-How do I get on her?’, Mir asked, slightly stuttering. Even though he wasn’t as frightened as before, he was still scared.
‘You have to place your foot in the loop right there.’, you started to explain and pointed at it. ‘Once you do so, grab the horn and pull yourself as hardly as you can up, swinging your other leg around her, placing your foot into the other loop.’
Mir nodded and did as told, placing his foot in the loop and pulling himself up.
Where was he? You looked at the clock on your desktop. 11:07 PM. You were dying to see him. Your body was aching for him.
After you saw his live performance you thought you were going crazy with lust. He should’ve been there by now yet he wasn’t. Your skin was burning. You felt like your every hormone was cutting your insides as you were waiting for him.
It was already so late no light from the shops was peeking through the windows of your living room. The only thing which was lighting your room was the tiny desktop of your laptop which was placed on the mini-table before you. The darkness and the complete silence which were lingering around you was making the atmosphere more erotic, pushing you towards doing things you didn’t want to do alone.
You looked at the clock again. 11:09. It was as if time was mocking you.
You closed your eyes, imagining Thunder on stage. He was rapping, his eyes full of depth, his black blazer molding with his shoulders, his black hair flowing beautifully.
He was thrusting his hips, his mouth muttering the lines you didn’t really pay attention to. Your body was getting hotter, your hand moving by itself.
You were imagining him on stage, and then, suddenly, images of him touching you invaded your mind.
You slid your hand down your stomach, your fingers unbuttoning your denim shorts.
You didn’t want to pleasure yourself, you wanted to wait for him, but you couldn’t resist the temptation anymore.
You spread your legs on the armrest of your easychair, sneaking your hand under your panties and starting to apply pressure with your index finger on your clit.
You eyes were closed shut, trying to imagine Thunder touching you as clearly as possible.
You placed your index and middle finger on the sides of your clit, pressing them together and pushing them down and pulling them up, applying so much pleasure you started to moan out from the sensation.
Your muscles were tense, your mind full of images of Thunder having his way with you.
‘Having fun?’, you heard a voice and instantly pulled your hand out of your panties, looking with wide eyes at Thunder.
He was standing in the threshold, his hand covering his mouth, his eyes so dark it looked as if night itself was housing in them.
You were so concentrated on masturbating you didn’t even hear him arrive home.
He slowly walked towards you and you pressed your legs together, extremly embarrassed by the fact that he caught you in action.
‘Couldn’t wait until I got home, eh? Moaning my name like that.’, he said with a cocky expression and knelt in front of you.
I looked at my watch. It was quarter past two. Again, I was fooled again. You called me and I ran over to you like a dog.
You opened the door. Black silk panties and a fire-red bra. My blood was boiling. I had to stand firm though, this was the night when I had to let go of you.
‘You came?’, you asked me in the most erotic way and placed your forearm onto the wall, curling your body in such a position that your curves were more accentuated than usually. You knew too well that you were driving me crazy.
‘You called me.’, I replied and probably glared at you. My vision was getting blurry already. Every time you were in front of me I lost all my senses. I wanted to have you so badly yet I wanted to push you away.
You grabbed the collar of my black jacket and pulled me in, pushing the door close after I got in.
You traced your fingertips along my jawline, sending shivers down my spine. Your eyes were full of depth, making me forget everything about all the things I was going to tell you.
You locked your lips with mine, allowing me to taste you, allowing me to feel your soft lips against mine.
Then, you placed your hand onto my shoulder and pressed me down, making me kneel in front of you.
Again, I was in my knees, just to get a taste of heaven.
You were smirking at me, knowing too well what kind of power you had on me. I hated you so much for using me like that, yet it seemed like I didn’t have the power to fight against your seduction.
You stretched your bare leg towards me and I started to kiss you from your ankle up to your thigh, your taste lingering on my lips and tongue.
I was blinded by you, but I couldn’t do anything about it, I was addicted.
You were looking down at me, enjoying the show. I started to press my tongue against your clit through the material of your panties, at some point pushing the material away and eating you up. You flung one of your legs around my shoulder, allowing me to pleasure you better. My tongue was sliding between your labia, tasting your every drop of wettness, making my mind swirl around once again.
When you got enough, you pushed me away, telling me to stand up.
’_______, I can-‘, I started to fight against you, but you wrapped your hands around my neck and started kissing me in such a passionate way I couldn’t say anything anymore.
I placed my hands on your hips, feeling your hot flesh under my touch.
I cupped your bum and lifted you up, and you instantly wrapped your legs around me. Even while kissing me, I could feel the smirk lingering on your lips. God, I hated you so much.
As I was walking towards your bed, you pushed the jacket off my shoulders leaving me in my shirt.
You started to bite and lick the side of my neck, driving me completely crazy.
‘W-What’s the point of doing this every night?’, I asked stuttering but you didn’t even bother answering me.
I threw you onto the bed, climbing on top of you, looking you directly in the eye.
‘I can’t keep sleeping in your bed’, I almost whispered, ‘If you keep messing with my head.’
Again, you smirked, mocking me, not even caring about my opinions.
You grabbed the ends of my shirt and pulled it over my head, leaving me half-naked.
You slid your hand down my chest, pinching one of my nipples with your index finger and thumb, making me groan. Why were you doing this to me? I was dying yet you didn’t care about me at all. What you’re giving me is nothing but a heartless lullaby. Even if I was addicted, I couldn’t stand the pain inflicted anymore.
You suddenly sneaked your hands behind your back, unhooking your bra and getting rid of it. You grabbed my hand and placed it onto one of your breasts, showing me exactly what you wanted from me.
‘This is the last time.’, I said as I leaned next to your ear, starting to massage your breast. ‘You have to make up your mind.’
Again, there was silence from you. I don’t even know why I bothered anymore. I was nothing but a toy to you with which you could play whenever you wanted. I was your one and only only when you were lonely.
You grabbed my hand and pushed it down your stomach. I sneaked my hand under your panties, starting to press my thumb against your clit, hearing soft moans escaping your throat.
‘I can’t keep touching you this.’, I whisper against your ear while listening to the heavenly sounds you were creating. ‘If it’s just temporary bliss.’
Then, brutally, you slapped my hand away, pushing me away as well, standing up from the bed and hurriedly grabbing a towel, wrapping it around you.
‘Will you stop it already?!’, you shouted angrily at me. It was the first time you were mad at me. ‘Stop ruining everything!’
I stood up from the bed as well, coming closer to you.
‘Just stop it! What we have is amazing right now! Why, just why do you want to destroy everything?! Do you really want to not see ever again?!’, you continued yelling at me. Why were you that angry?
‘No, no, of course not! I want to see you every day! I want to be with you every day! But not like this! I can’t take this pain anymore _________! I can’t do this anymore every night! I can’t be with you every night anymore, because the next morning you’re not holding onto me anymore!’
‘I’m giving you already as much as I can! What else do you want from me?!’, you shouted and clutched your fist.
‘You! I want you! Not only your body, I want you as a whole!’, I shouted back and felt how my heart was ready to break my chest.
Your expression suddenly changed. You weren’t as angry anymore.
‘I can’t do that…’, you almost whispered but I heard you.
‘Why?’, I asked.
‘I just can’t…’
‘Of course you can’t!’, I said and huffed. ‘Of course not, I’m just your toy, right? Just a guy you’re fucking every night, but I’m not worth anything more, right? You don’t care at all about me so how could you ever want a relationship with trash like me, right?!’. I was out of my mind, I didn’t even know what I was saying anymore.
You walked towards me, slapping me so hard my head turned to the side.
I placed my hand onto the hit spot and slowly turned my face to you. I couldn’t believe my eyes. Tears were falling down your cheeks.
‘You idiot! Do you really believe all of that?! Do you really think I don’t care about you?! I am calling YOU every night, only and only you! Because I want you by my side, not somebody else! Do you really not get it you fool?!’, you were yelling so loudly my heart was breaking. I was probably looking at you with eyes wide open. It was the first time I was seeing you crying, so my soul was shattering. ‘Do you really not understand that I’m just afraid?! I’m afraid of the things that I feel for you, I’m afraid of getting hurt if I will give my whole to you! How can you even believe those things about me?!’, you scolded with a disgusted expression on.
You were ready to walk away from me, but I grabbed your wrist and pulled you back, starting to kiss you, my hand entangled into your hair. You wanted to fight against my touch at first, but then, you let yourself sink it.
I lifted you up and placed you on the bed again, lying on top of you, looking at your tears-stained beautiful face.
I wiped the traces of your tears away and kissed your forehead.
‘I’m sorry.’, I said and looked at you. Your eyes were so different from what I saw before. Were those your real eyes? They were more beautiful than heaven itself. ‘I’m so sorry for not understanding you, I was only thinking about me.’
You didn’t say anything.
‘But please, don’t be afraid. I’m in love with you, and I promise you, there’s no way I’m going to intentionally hurt you, I promise.’, I added and you caressed my cheek with the back of your palm. ‘But please, please, don’t hurt me either.’
You traced your fingertip across my bottom lip.
‘I won’t’, you whispered and smiled. ‘Now kiss me.’
You can’t imagine what a great time I had writing this oh god! Inspired by the song “Temporary Bliss” by The Cab.
Hope you guys enjoy it as much as I do! xx Lots of love and see you soon, C!